Remember when the one thing we all wanted the most was for “Daddy to get on first shift”?
We prayed hard for that and after several years of him working nights, it happened! Just in time to see you guys more often since you were in school!
Life has a way of wearing on you, especially if you’re trying to do all or most of it in your own strength. That was me. It was a slow process, so I didn’t see it coming and didn’t notice it going. The beautiful prayer time I had with you each night got lost in the shuffle of everyday life.
Like I said, I didn’t notice it. I was drowning in college work, working part time, stealing away time from important things to spend more time on the unimportant. I had little to no self love, and got my accolades from my peers. This was the perfect breeding ground for going out often and drinking. I would act ridiculous and get attention. It took me a LOT of years to see that the attention I was receiving was unhealthy.
In comes God yet again, turning crap into beautiful things like only He can. I’m NOT preaching no drinking. God gave us wine to make our hearts glad (Psalm 104:15). What I am saying is that for me, a drink limit is prudent. I’ve been trying to live by this rule for a few months now, and it has made such a difference in my life for the better.
What I wish I would have taught you: Never stop doing the good things…even when it gets hard. Don’t EVER quit!
Life as I Know It 